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[akatatai]

Izumi Miyamura

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[akatatai]

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Why are you like this

[maskreant]

is that not enough money?

[akatatai]

It's not about money!

You realize you're going to have to explain this to me, right...
Why would you even
What

[maskreant]

because he wants to be the provider, especially in a relationship.

so rely on him and call him daddy as a joke.

[akatatai]

I mean... That SOUNDS like him, but also

The fact that your mind jumped to that says a lot about you
(I mean that in the nicest way I swear)

[maskreant]

that i'm quick to find the worst way to humiliate someone?

[ that's nice! ]

[akatatai]

It's a talent, honestly

[maskreant]

it's easy to learn.

so are you in?

[akatatai]

Is it bad that I'm kind of afraid to say no?
I just don't want Tsukasa to hate me

[maskreant]

you can say no. i don’t mind.

if he hates you over a joke, then he doesn’t deserve your friendship.

[akatatai]

Don't worry, I'm almost positive he wouldn't ACTUALLY hate me
Tsukasa isn't that kind of guy!

I'll be honest: I don't really want to do it
But at the same time, I want to see his reaction...

[maskreant]

you're just as bad as me then.

welcome to the fold, brother. dark hair and gloomy.

[akatatai]

Are you trying to take my title from me?

Just kidding!
You've never seemed that gloomy to me, though
Dark hair and... trickster? And cat puns, maybe

[maskreant]

really? i was pretty different 2 years ago.

glad to hear that i've changed.

[akatatai]

You were?
I mean... you haven't seen me at my gloomiest either
Not even close

But maybe we have more in common than I thought

[maskreant]

yeah. i had no friends and i didn't want any. i only dealt with people when i needed to. group projects, work, teachers, etc. whatever to get by.

maybe we do. what were you like?

[akatatai]

That sounds like me...
I'm still kind of gloomy and keep a low profile in school outside of the art club, but it's nothing like it used to be

I didn't have any friends either
Nobody wanted to talk to me because I was gloomy and depressing, so I didn't try to reach out to anyone
Every day was hard back then... I used to wish everyone would disappear, since things would be easier that way
So instead of talking to real people, I busied myself with art and only talked to people online for years

I'm really lucky to have friends like you and Mao and Yusuke.

[maskreant]

wow. we’re a pair of antisocial outcasts. if you think about it, we wouldn’t have been friends if we stayed that way, too. spooky.

but i’m glad we’re friends and that you have others. you don’t need a lot, but even having one changes the whole world.

[ ... ]

may i ask another personal question?

[akatatai]

It isn't really that spooky, is it...
At least we aren't the people we used to be, right?
But I can't agree more! It's kind of amazing how much one person can change your life, isn't it?

Uh, sure?

[maskreant]

what made you less gloomy?

[ Or just changed him in general? ]

[akatatai]

Someone took my hand and stayed by my side when no one else would.
It sounds sappy, I know, but it changed everything for me
When I couldn't smile or like anything about myself, that smile was enough to save me.

[maskreant]

[ holy shit ]

are we the same person?

[akatatai]

[Definitely not, but--]

You had someone like that too? Really?!

[maskreant]

mine wasn’t as sappy, but i had an epiphany that when i saw their smile and actually acknowledged them. they were trying to help me out and be my friend for a while despite my disappearance and cold ways.

still, kind of similar.

[akatatai]

That's... really important.

So you know exactly how it feels to have someone smile at you when no one else would.

It's not exactly the same, but it's close enough that I think I might understand your feelings back then painfully well. Just maybe.